A Funny, Boring, Ordinary Day - Chapter 3

It was a boring day, and I had nothing to do the whole morning. December 27, 2006. "I'm wasting my vacation away." I grumbled as I lie down my bed. Since the Internet Connection was bad, I was forced to watch TV. It's been months, no a year, since I last saw programs in TV. And wow, lucky me, StarWars was on. Minutes passed. I was getting drowsy... sleepy.

"Yawn..." I decided to change channels. "Boring... Boring... Boring!" "Maria..." my mom called from outside my room. I groaned. I hate being called 'Maria', that's my first name by the way. "What is it, Ma?" "Are you going out today?" "I don't know. Depends on my mood." I made a face. No, it does not depend on my mood. it depends whether besin will go out today or not. My thoughts corrected me. I sighed. Pathetic, really pathetic, jazmin. "Lunch is ready." my mom's voice rang out from my debating thoughts.
I turned off the TV and went outside my room to eat lunch. As usual, I ate lunch alone. Then I heard my parents and our driver talk loudly, "...What?!" "...Our neighbor got shot on the leg..." "...Really?!How dangerous this place is..." "... foreigner got robbed in their house..."
I decided not to listen. Somebody got shot... I smirked, "Hmph! Wish it was me..." I mumbled as I ate the fried eggs on my plate. I noisily ate my breakfast, purposely playing with my spoon and fork. Damn! I'm bored. I stood up and went to my room. Since yesterday, I have been thinking about surprising my ex, besin. I planned to go buy a cake, and go to his house as a surprise. Haha! Dream on, jazmin... do you want to shame yourself? What if besin is not there? How would you react? My mind was thinking about the dozen possibilities, but my hands were already picking up jeans and a baby tee shirt from my closet. I dressed up and lied back down on the bed. This is silly... besin already told me to move on. Why am I still acting this way? I grabbed my pillow and hugged it tight. A picture of besin floated in my mind. Damn, I was still in love with him.
I went out of my room to grab myself a glass of water when my mom saw me. "Awww, are you going out after all?" she asked. "My daughter looks pretty today." I looked down at myself, then at my mom. "Well? Are you really going out?" she prompted. I sighed, shrugged then went back to my room. Argh!!! This is so fucked up! I wanted to go out, but without besin... there's just no point...
"Grrrrr!!!!" I shouted, as I dressed back to ordinary house attire. I turned on the PC, the connection was sooooo slow. So I decided to sleep at the roof deck of our house when my cellphone beeped. I quickly ran back to my room. May it be besin... Unlock. Messages. Inbox.
Message From: CS TeamLider
I pouted. I went back up to the roof deck and slumped on the bench. CS TeamLider was well... my CounterStrike Buddy. And yeah, he's the Team Leader. Lol! We texted for awhile about our problematic love lives. I smiled. If people knew that going into a relationship meant risking their hearts to be broken... then why do they still enter into a relationship? Ahh... stubborn people do that. Stubborn people, like me. So, maybe, I have been expecting this to happen. When I entered into this relationship with Besin, I knew I was risking my heart to be broken again. But I didn't know it would hurt this much.
I loved too much, and now i'm suffering too much also. I thought as I closed my eyes and rested my back on the bench.
Hmm... love... I'm beginning to hate the word...
maybe I'll end up an old maid...
gasps!!! no waaayyyy!!!
I smiled at my own thoughts. I was going crazy.
ZZZzzzzzz....