Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Okay, so today is January 16, 2007. Sixteen.. yes, 16!!! it's my favorite number, next to 13!!! and yes, in all my 23 years of life... every 16th of each month, BAD LUCK strikes me!!! and you ask why i still love that number? hell, i don't know! i just love it. i love the sound of it! i love the numbers! i love the sweet sixteen thing! i love it coz my birthday's on August 16! I love it coz my mom's bday is on July 16! I love it coz my parent's anniversary is in November 16! I love it coz the first letter of my family name, which is P, is the 16th letter in the alphabet!!! Hell, yeah!! i love 16!!!but bad luck strikes me, and it's worse today!!

Here's what happened:

7:00 AM I woke up early coz the freakin' dogs were so loud. There was a fucked up dog fight right outside our house and it took the whole 30 minutes to calm the stupid dogs. i slept again.

8:00 AM The neighbors' cars, motorcycles are driving me crazy, they're off to work or where ever! Hell, i don't care! but they're fucking noisy! So i FORCED myself to get up. Instantly, i got this pit feeling (intuition?) that this day IS NOT A GOOD DAY.

8:05-8:30 AM Tried to make a final debug of my program, and it's still not working! After 4 days of hardwork, i'm still down the pits with this stupid program! I gave up. Failing Grade expected.

8:35 - 9:45 AM Watched Anime to cool off my hot head.

9:48-10:15 AM Took a bath - i ran out of shampoo. fuck life! i had to strangle the shit out of the bottle to get myself a small decent amount. i forgot to buy groceries. reminded myself to buy groceries.

10:15 - 10:25 AM On my way to school in a tricycle. Would you believe?? I forgot my diskette with the program, so i had to go back. My mind was.... flying???

10:30 - 10:45 AM had to beg my dad to let our driver drive me to school (he doesn't want to in the first place coz he's got another appointment at 1:00 pm and he doesnt want the car to go back and forth to save gas.) - he finally allowed me.

10:45 - 11:10 AM yes! reached just in time! (was hoping to see my ex in an internet cafe b4 i go to class.) ahhhhh!!!!!! LIFE!!!

11:10 - 11:35 AM Stood inside and waited. (Please be here, besin - name of my ex) 11:40 AM Whoa! He's here! but... whoosh! huh? *ignore ignore* *heart breaking sounds* then we talked. whee!!!

11:45 AM We both went outside the internet shop. We both separate ways. he wanted to eat. he doesn't want to go to class. i hesistated... (should i eat with him?) *stomach growl* *look at watch....

11:47.... i'll be late if i eat." I waved good bye, turned away quickly so that he can't see MY FUCKING TEARS!!! is that all he has to say??? that he's gonna eat???? WTF???? soooooobbbb!!!

12:00 -3:00 PM Programming.... Programming.... Programming....

3:02 PM Went down from 8th floor by stairs, when i reached at ground floor.... I forgot my bag? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! so i had to go up to 8TH floor again...

3:25 PM *Rush Rush* Walking briskly towards the internet shop. Out of breath.

3:40 PM Arrived at the shop. Saw my EX. I playfully poked his head. No response. *Poke Poke* Silence. *POKKKKKEEEEEE!!!!!* ---> harder. He turned his head, then back at the DOTA game. Yeah, just turned his head. Snob. I ran out of the internet shop. No, no..i will not cry.

3:45-4:10 PM Walked around the mall, did some groceries, replaced the damaged pc game i bought for another one. *Should i go home? I think he wont care... I bet he won't notice either.* *heart breaking sounds* I walked back inside and played DOTA.

4:15 - 7:00 + PM He was my ally.. i LOST!! no, WE LOST!!! 1st game - 1st loss. big shit? yeah... my MOOD went down the drain. i became a zombie.

7:00+ PM My ex wants to borrow my newly replaced NFS-CARBON pc game. *Should i? ohhh yeah... points for him... maybe he'll like me again...* BUMP BUMP TONK BAM! *sound effects for imagining myself hitting my head against the wall...* I said, "No, do i have any obligation to let you try it first before i do?" BUMP BUMP TONK BAM!*sound effects for imagining myself hitting my head against the wall...* Did I just freaking say that??? Now how am i supposed to score points with him? Now wait a minute! why should i score points with him?? he doesn't want me back anymore!!! Leave him!!! I quickly said bye and rushed towards the jeepney stop with my heavy groceries and bag.

7:00+ 15 minutes later... No jeepney with available seats... too many people mobbing the jeeps... I went back to the mall, told my friends that i'm goin on a taxi, ignored my ex... even if i met his eye. don't wana look at him. i might cry. can't he see i'm struggling with my bag, heavy book and grocery bag? can't he see i need his help? can't he.......................................... aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! i walked fast. no, i wont cry.

7:00+ another 15 minutes later... No taxi. I'm a good girl. i let the elder people with big groceries first. sacrifice. *stomach growl* hungry.... BEEP! BEEP! yey! a taxi!!! 7:50 PM The taxi's engine went dead. HAHAHAHA! I LOVE YOU 16TH OF EACH MONTH!!! I'm gonna kill myself someday.

8:00 PM Hurrah! the engine was ok again.

8:20 PM Arrived Home. Taxi Charge: 72.00 php. i paid 100 php. While looking for change, SLOWLY... i repeat... SLOWLY... the charge went up: 75.00 php he gave me 25 php change. WTF??? i said: "Manong, I looked at your meter, it was 72.00. your change is lacking. Give me 28 pesos." The driver glared at me. I glared back. FUCK YOU!!! he gave me 28 pesos.
ASSHOLE! Your taxi banged up on me, u added the charge and now you're fucking glaring at me??? You fucking stupid, prick head?? ---> no, i did not say that to him. I slammed the door shut and grabbed for the house gate. Ewwww!!! Disgusting Black OIL!!!! yeah, OIL!!! Yehey! I got oil on my right hand and 2 packages on my left hand plus a falling bag by my shoulder and a messed up hair with a demonic face... I WANT TO SCREAAAAMMMM!!! i kicked open the gate, slammed the living room door and my mom went rushing down the stairs and i yelled,

"MA, sorry but i've had a run of bad luck today so please... don't say anything until i've calmed down." Silence. "thank you." i said and rushed to my room.

BAD LUCK??? it was hell!

BEEP BEEP! --> cellphone message

THe fuck!!! I want to throw my cellphone.
I opened the inbox.

Besin...

Silence. yeah, i'm better now.

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