I Did What I Had To Do

Everything's over, and now it's too late...
i can't hope anymore... i cannot wait...
Despite the hope, the wish that i keep,
All that I've done so far is weep...

But someday I will get tired and quit,
and I will move on, bit by bit,
And someday you'll realize that you've lost me,
And you can't have me back coz you set me free.

I did what I have and wanted to do,
to correct my mistakes that I've done to you,
I did what I thought would make you stay,
but instead you refused and stayed away.

I had hoped to be by your side forever,
But i'm hurting myself more than ever,
Like what you did, you simply let go...
your love has died...i cannot make it grow.

I can never ask you to be mine again,
to love you more than just a friend,
but it hurts for me to see you in that way,
i can't live on... if you can't stay.

So it's better if we can't be friends anymore...
it will never be the same...the same as before...
I'm sorry for everything if i made you cry,
we both hurt each other... so it's a sad goodbye...

you will always be inside my heart,
the memories we had...it will never part...
but since you refused my love for you,
this is the only thing i had to do...

For me, this is the only way,
Smile and live on another day...
coz i know some guy will find me someday,
and he will love me... and he will stay.

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I Hate... but I Love

I'm losing hope, i've given up,
i'm letting go, so i'll stand up,
coz i won't follow you anymore,
i'm not a stalker, i'm not a whore.

I won't be treated like some foolish plaything,
a simple toy without a mind, without feeling...
coz i'm a person, and i need respect...
don't treat me like the bitches you collect.

i'm stronger than the person you think i am,
i fell for a moment but i don't give a damn,
So i'll stand up and show my face,
I never lived a life to hide with disgrace.

So what if i've been foolish for the past few days?
My mind was clouded by your 'acts' and ways...
To think that you broke my heart in two,
did you really think i'd fall back to you?

We both had the chance, but you lost yours,
I lost mine and i won't beg in all fours,
coz i'm not a dog, i'm the girl you loved before,
i won't crawl on my knees and ask for more.

Coz after the things i've done for you,
you choked my heart and broke it to two.
i hate you for doing things your way,
i hate you because you refused to stay.

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But i love you for caring despite the mistakes i did,
and i love you despite destiny forbid...
Despite the things that i've said above...
I know I hate... but I can't help but love...